One things I’ve learned about them… they are endless both in number and quantity. There are also endless combinations.
No matter how old you are or how many experiences you’ve had, there are always new feelings to discover and always more experiences to awaken those feelings.
I grew up on the street! No.. not the hood! The Sesame Street!
- J.D. - Scrubs s08e05
Ok granted! Every human being follows a decreasing curve of development. During his early years the development (or growing if you prefer) rate is extremely fast. Children asborb experience and knowledge like magnets, allowing it to influence them both in a conscious and subconscious level.
Then a time comes when we “grow up”. We are not “children” any more. The development rate (or knowledge absorption rate if you prefer this time) is low. We have established patterns of behaviour. We learn to react in certain ways to certain situations. That’s what we know we’re supposed to do, that’s how we know we should do it, that’s it.
Does this ever change? From time to time again I feel trapped in my own subconscious mind. I feel like no matter how much I try to break my own “algorithm” of behaviour I just can’t. I’m doomed to make the same mistakes because I can’t truly change who I’ve become. Is this view too pessimistic? Have I given up?
Maybe it’s just my impression. Then again I reach back to my last post about who we really are. The way we define ourselves is the basis of judging if we have indeed changed. If we keep the behaviouralistic definition “we are what we do, how we behave, how we react” then the change is always partial. We never truly change our behavioral patterns. Once we’ve etsablished them during our early years it is very difficult (if not impossible?) to reset or change them. We may “recalibrate” certain rough edges but that’s it. Or sometimes we have hidden properties that have already been established but never realised. We still don’t change; it’s just that we had it in us and let it out.
But that’s just one definition of who we are… This post is in vain. If we don’t know who we are, we can never realise if we’ve changed. Who are we anyway?
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An assortment of not so random things that relate to me one way or another. Tumblelog is much easier to maintain than a normal blog.
I'm a PhD student in AI and a INFJ (Counselor Idealist) with an obvious passion for music and describing my life with it. I think this is more than enough to describe me.
- dr_Eamer
